Wrap up...

This semester I have really noticed an improvement in both of the relationships that I decided to focus on - one good and one not so good.

The main reason why I chose Breanne for my "good" relationship is because this is her last semester and I honestly don't know when I will see her again after this semester. She is my best friend and is a big support in my life. I'm really going to miss spending time with her.

Now, you have to understand, I really do have a good relationship with my sister Holly. Just not great. It was really bad when we were younger. We used to fight all the time and we never got a long. I think another thing that kind of drives a wedge in between us is the fact that she doesn't go to church. She KNOWS the church is true, she just... well, hasn't made the smartest decisions in her life. She tells us all the time that she feels "stuck" and I don't think she realizes we would do anything for her to not feel that way. I really do feel as if our relationship has improved since I have been making a conscious effort, and I will continue to do so.

A good laugh and a break...

It's the end of the semester, and we're all a little on edge. Last night I was working on homework when I got a text from Breanne and this is how the conversation went...

Breanne: So... what r ya doin?

Me: Well, working on homework. What are you doin?

Breanne: I am sprawled on my bed throwing a tantrum... yes a tantrum. I need to get out. Want to do something?

I got in the "Rescue-the-friend-from-homework" mode and started making suggestions. We ended up taking a much needed break and 5 episodes of Big Bang Theory later, we were laughing ourselves silly.

I am grateful for friends in a time when de-stressing is necessary.

But I really shouldn't be...

You know, I really don't have a lot left for school. And it's nice. But surprisingly? I'm a little stressed right now... I think the issue is that I'm just sooooo ready to be done and take a break before the fresh start next semester. Which I am SO EXCITED FOR! I love the beginnings of semesters. New friends, new classes, and new experiences to come. So for now, I'm stressed, but not for long. :)

We ain't gonna live forevah...

This last weekend was one of the last REAL weekends that I could spend time with Breanne. She is graduating this semester and she is moving on with her life. This picture is a sample of what we did... We painted with lights! You turn off all the lights in the room and use glow sticks to trace the outlines of individuals. We're Charlie's Angels can't you tell??? Anyways. I'm going to miss her...

Phone Call...

Yesterday was one of the most awful days that I've had in a long time. By 6:00 I had already vented to my mother, Breanne, and my roommate Whitney. There are times I really need to talk to people but I feel like I'm just being a burden and annoyance to them. The day just continued to get worse and by 10, I REALLY needed to talk to someone. The person I could think of? My sister Holly. Despite our differences we have always been able to listen to each other and I knew I could depend on her. So I called her and we talked for about 45 minutes. It was so helpful to have her there just to listen to me. I love my sister and everything she does for me. We will be friends forever.

Emotions...

Looking back on the past 3 days... I've had a very WIDE range of emotions. So lets go through the days...

Sunday... It started out as a good day. I got up and got ready for church, but then started to not feel very well towards the end. I ended up coming home and laying on the couch for a while. I was feeling kind of sick and disgusted at the same time because I didn't want to get sick! That afternoon I took a 3 hour nap and afterwards didn't feel any better because I had slept half the day away... That evening was better. I got out and went for a walk then drove around listening to Christmas music and looking at lights.

Monday... it was a great day. I spent time with some great friends and a group in one of my classes gave a very good presentation. Feeling great. Went home and worked on homework then went to the gym. I always feel great after going to the gym. I guess I let those endorphins really get to me... Monday evening my roommate informed me that Jamba Juice was selling smoothies for $1! Score! So we went. Ended up being a good day.

Then came Tuesday.... I swear everything that could have possibly went wrong that day did. I went through a whole RANGE of emotions including disappointment, frustration, anger, relief, some more frustration, and sadness. I forewent the gym that evening.... and went to dinner at Olive Garden instead with a couple friends. The complete opposite. But I had a great time! I talked to my mom on the phone on the way home and she assured me that I had hit rock bottom and nothing else could possibly go wrong that day... she was sure wrong... something else happened. Sorry no details... but lets just say I was past rock bottom. So I called my sister Holly and talked to her about my day because I felt that everyone else had already gotten an earful. She was such a good listener and cheered me up. :)

All I have to say is that we are all human. We all experience emotion. And we can expect it on a daily basis.

Love Languages

I wasn't surprised at the results I got for the Love Languages test in class. My Love Language ranked highest to lowest with the scores is, Quality Time (10), Words of Affirmation (6), Physical Touch (5), Receiving Gifts (4), Acts of Service (4).

Spending quality time with someone is something that is really important to me. I feel that the foundation of any good relationship is built on knowing information about the other person and you can only truthfully know that information by spending time with them, talking and getting to know them.

My second Love Language is words of affirmation. Compliments are always nice. It shows that you are noticing the good things about the other person. Although, I feel words are empty when the actions to match what the person is saying.